07 July 2008
1154 hrs
YooHoo!!!I am Free!Well, almost.Finally,today I am free from all tension.Last few days have been testing for me and I have emerged winner(mental hoorray!).So,as I am in an amazing mood today,lemme reflect some of it in this post itself.There is a popular myth that there is a bird called Phoenix(yeah,same Harry Potter stuff).It is said that when it dies,it bursts into flames and is reborn from the ashes.Well,it's not like I lit myself or something,but I sure as hell am feeling like reborn from ashes(tastes real bad).Amazing few days I had involving quite a few life changing decisions.For,the last 1 or 2 weeks I have been struggling to find some outlet to my creativity and finally I have found it.That's like cherry on the top of the cake I have here.See,I am unable to stop talking about this thing,so what I think is that I should stop the post here itself and continue some time later.
Adios Amigos
Monday, July 7, 2008
Thursday, July 3, 2008
03JULY2008
03 July 2008
1348 hrs
New month,New day,New post,same old story.I am actually quite tired of whining,so let me start with some light stuff.Yesterday I saw an amazing movie called Aamir.Simply Awesome!Great storyline,amazing acting,slightly on a slower side but nice direction.Though the movie was more or less predictable but the climax was simply great,really innovative.Being a lunatic movie buff,I was really satisfied to see such a movie in Bollywood industry.
Getting on with the intense stuff,2 days ago,I was reading this book about a kid who was ridiculed his entire life,by his friends,parents,relatives,teachers,lecturers,bosses(in short,ALL) and how he suffered from acute depression and wanted to end his life many a times but chickened out.How he damned his own life by screwing everything good that happened to him.And then I realised how my life was shaping up the same way!I mean I am not one of the favourites of my colleagues and my relatives generally disapproves of all my ideas.Though I wasn't unpopular in my school days(I had many friends!) but I too am lately screwing many potentially nice things happening to me.So,there I was,reading this book and thinking whether I am gonna end in a similar way,I mean depressed and all!But then I realised one big difference between him and me.I still had my parents with me(and ofcourse I have never thought of calling it cuckoos!).That's what has made the difference.And I am pretty sure as long as my parents are there with me (physically or emotionally),I am never gonna end like that.Pretty serious,haan?So,let me end this with an unquotable quote:
"When you feel distressed,when you feel depressed,when you see life slipping through your fingers,just remember to remember me and you'll be happy again,my son!"
1348 hrs
New month,New day,New post,same old story.I am actually quite tired of whining,so let me start with some light stuff.Yesterday I saw an amazing movie called Aamir.Simply Awesome!Great storyline,amazing acting,slightly on a slower side but nice direction.Though the movie was more or less predictable but the climax was simply great,really innovative.Being a lunatic movie buff,I was really satisfied to see such a movie in Bollywood industry.
Getting on with the intense stuff,2 days ago,I was reading this book about a kid who was ridiculed his entire life,by his friends,parents,relatives,teachers,lecturers,bosses(in short,ALL) and how he suffered from acute depression and wanted to end his life many a times but chickened out.How he damned his own life by screwing everything good that happened to him.And then I realised how my life was shaping up the same way!I mean I am not one of the favourites of my colleagues and my relatives generally disapproves of all my ideas.Though I wasn't unpopular in my school days(I had many friends!) but I too am lately screwing many potentially nice things happening to me.So,there I was,reading this book and thinking whether I am gonna end in a similar way,I mean depressed and all!But then I realised one big difference between him and me.I still had my parents with me(and ofcourse I have never thought of calling it cuckoos!).That's what has made the difference.And I am pretty sure as long as my parents are there with me (physically or emotionally),I am never gonna end like that.Pretty serious,haan?So,let me end this with an unquotable quote:
"When you feel distressed,when you feel depressed,when you see life slipping through your fingers,just remember to remember me and you'll be happy again,my son!"
Monday, June 30, 2008
30JUN2008
30 June,2008
1212 hrs
I am back!Well,I would have been back on 26th itself,but then something happened that held me for 5 whole days.See,the thing is that my life is much more happening than yours(and not always in a good way).So,2 days ago,I was lying peacefully on my bed with my lappy,playing FIFA08(btw it's much better than the 07) when suddenly this guy calls me(the name is Mr.Bhusan).The news he gave me simply rocked my self confidence.I can't mention the news here but I can tell you that it simply devastated me and I was speechless for about 11 seconds(my previous best was 6)!Normally when something like this happens,I have my Ammu around to talk to.But this time it was quite different as my mom-dad are on a 2 month long U.S trip and there is no way to contact them other than e-mail.Also,I didn't want to ruin their first holiday together after long time.So,I realised that I had to deal with this alone.Now that's actually very difficult,especially for me because,lets face it,I am not one of those ever-enthu type of guys.I mean it's a general notion that I am one of the lazy types in the family.So,it was a hard task for me to pick up my butt from the bed and have a one on one with the problem.So,I decided to let it come to me first and then I would deal with it from the bed itself(I know it's a neat idea,but then).And here I am after two days of pillow fighting,writing this blog entry feeling confident yet again.So,let me end with the following quote:
"When Fight or Flight are the only two options remaining,
then generally Flight is the better one."
Adios Amigos
1212 hrs
I am back!Well,I would have been back on 26th itself,but then something happened that held me for 5 whole days.See,the thing is that my life is much more happening than yours(and not always in a good way).So,2 days ago,I was lying peacefully on my bed with my lappy,playing FIFA08(btw it's much better than the 07) when suddenly this guy calls me(the name is Mr.Bhusan).The news he gave me simply rocked my self confidence.I can't mention the news here but I can tell you that it simply devastated me and I was speechless for about 11 seconds(my previous best was 6)!Normally when something like this happens,I have my Ammu around to talk to.But this time it was quite different as my mom-dad are on a 2 month long U.S trip and there is no way to contact them other than e-mail.Also,I didn't want to ruin their first holiday together after long time.So,I realised that I had to deal with this alone.Now that's actually very difficult,especially for me because,lets face it,I am not one of those ever-enthu type of guys.I mean it's a general notion that I am one of the lazy types in the family.So,it was a hard task for me to pick up my butt from the bed and have a one on one with the problem.So,I decided to let it come to me first and then I would deal with it from the bed itself(I know it's a neat idea,but then).And here I am after two days of pillow fighting,writing this blog entry feeling confident yet again.So,let me end with the following quote:
"When Fight or Flight are the only two options remaining,
then generally Flight is the better one."
Adios Amigos
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
25JUN2008
25 June 2008
1051 hrs
Well sometimes life kicks you so hard in the crotch that u just wanna lie down,curl up,writhe in pain and cry.But then u realise that if u do this,life will just keep on kicking.So,instead u start wearing a cup.But then,why not wear the cup from start?Yeah,I know it's a bit philosophical,but I am in a good mood today.Why?Because I had an amazing dream last night and I still remember it.It was about a girl from my high school.By the way,I dont know why this happens with guys that whenever they dream about a girl,they call it amazing.Even if they get their butts kicked in the dream,they still call it amazing.Strange!Well,not that I am any different,but my dream was really amazing.Actually I used to have a crush on this particular gal,but didnt have enough strength to tell her.In the dream,we were sitting on a roof in the night and watching stars and holding hands and what not.I guess I have already said too much.So let me end it with a quote I read this morning:
"Happiness or misery,it is all in mind
it's the mind that lives,the body just follows."
adios Amigos
1051 hrs
Well sometimes life kicks you so hard in the crotch that u just wanna lie down,curl up,writhe in pain and cry.But then u realise that if u do this,life will just keep on kicking.So,instead u start wearing a cup.But then,why not wear the cup from start?Yeah,I know it's a bit philosophical,but I am in a good mood today.Why?Because I had an amazing dream last night and I still remember it.It was about a girl from my high school.By the way,I dont know why this happens with guys that whenever they dream about a girl,they call it amazing.Even if they get their butts kicked in the dream,they still call it amazing.Strange!Well,not that I am any different,but my dream was really amazing.Actually I used to have a crush on this particular gal,but didnt have enough strength to tell her.In the dream,we were sitting on a roof in the night and watching stars and holding hands and what not.I guess I have already said too much.So let me end it with a quote I read this morning:
"Happiness or misery,it is all in mind
it's the mind that lives,the body just follows."
adios Amigos
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
24JUN2008
24 June 2008
1203 hrs
Well,here I am yet again,blabbering as ever.So,as I was surfing the net today,I saw this horrifying video on youtube.It was about a puppy being beaten to death by some small children.This left me thinking,are the humans that good as they claim to be.Well,no offense considering I,myself am one of them,but when I see such things which man does against other species,it just hurts.Simply hurts.I know there is not much I can do currently,but I do hope to find a way later.Well,coming to another topic,yesterday was one of the wierdest days since long time.For starters I felt really good about myself,which is a thing I don't do much.Another thing was one of my arch rivals in school called me out of the blue and apologised!I mean what the heck!So,I spent almost entire afternoon brooding over this.After that I went to the mall to see some shitty movies.More shitty the movie is,happier I am.There is a simple reason for that.As I watch these awful movies,it makes me realise that there are far pathetic people existing on this planet than myself.I know this strategy in itself is pathetic,but what do I care.The autorickshaw driver who brought me back from the mall was quite rash(well,I almost puked!).He was like so very excited that it was a number of times when I thought that we were gonna crash.Finally I reached home and went to sleep within 10 minutes.
1203 hrs
Well,here I am yet again,blabbering as ever.So,as I was surfing the net today,I saw this horrifying video on youtube.It was about a puppy being beaten to death by some small children.This left me thinking,are the humans that good as they claim to be.Well,no offense considering I,myself am one of them,but when I see such things which man does against other species,it just hurts.Simply hurts.I know there is not much I can do currently,but I do hope to find a way later.Well,coming to another topic,yesterday was one of the wierdest days since long time.For starters I felt really good about myself,which is a thing I don't do much.Another thing was one of my arch rivals in school called me out of the blue and apologised!I mean what the heck!So,I spent almost entire afternoon brooding over this.After that I went to the mall to see some shitty movies.More shitty the movie is,happier I am.There is a simple reason for that.As I watch these awful movies,it makes me realise that there are far pathetic people existing on this planet than myself.I know this strategy in itself is pathetic,but what do I care.The autorickshaw driver who brought me back from the mall was quite rash(well,I almost puked!).He was like so very excited that it was a number of times when I thought that we were gonna crash.Finally I reached home and went to sleep within 10 minutes.
Monday, June 23, 2008
23JUN2008
22 June 2008
0622 hrs
Today is the first day of rest of my life.When I wake up in the evening(yeah u read it right),the first thing that crosses my mind is "Where the Hell am I???".I mean every now and then everyone has this feeling,but good god does this have to happen to me everytime!So,when I woke up yesterday at 2105 hrs,I had no idea where I was.Then I remembered that I was in my flat,in my room.Well it is not exactly my flat,but I have this habit of calling it home,wherever I reside.So,I was lying there and thinking what am I gonna do today.So,after about 10 minutes of silent thinking,I got up and headed towards T.V,one of the many things that keep me alive and kicking.After watching it for like 1 hour and listening to some really crappy shit from my cook Mr.Gopal,I came back to my room and switched on my lappy.Well,it is another factor responsible for some good time I spend in this shitty world.Till 0300 hrs,I watched some outcomes of man's greatest creation(video) and then decided to go to college to download and watch some more episodes of Scrubs(it's awesome by the way!).And now,here I am after watching 4 episodes and wasting way too much time thinking over them.I had this idea of describing my life some days ago,but felt like doing this today.It is actually quite difficult to start stuff like this,but when you do start,things start coming up automatically(I love long words like this).Well,now I am kinda out of thoughts for this post,so I think I am gonna end it here and see u in the next one.
Adios Amigos
0622 hrs
Today is the first day of rest of my life.When I wake up in the evening(yeah u read it right),the first thing that crosses my mind is "Where the Hell am I???".I mean every now and then everyone has this feeling,but good god does this have to happen to me everytime!So,when I woke up yesterday at 2105 hrs,I had no idea where I was.Then I remembered that I was in my flat,in my room.Well it is not exactly my flat,but I have this habit of calling it home,wherever I reside.So,I was lying there and thinking what am I gonna do today.So,after about 10 minutes of silent thinking,I got up and headed towards T.V,one of the many things that keep me alive and kicking.After watching it for like 1 hour and listening to some really crappy shit from my cook Mr.Gopal,I came back to my room and switched on my lappy.Well,it is another factor responsible for some good time I spend in this shitty world.Till 0300 hrs,I watched some outcomes of man's greatest creation(video) and then decided to go to college to download and watch some more episodes of Scrubs(it's awesome by the way!).And now,here I am after watching 4 episodes and wasting way too much time thinking over them.I had this idea of describing my life some days ago,but felt like doing this today.It is actually quite difficult to start stuff like this,but when you do start,things start coming up automatically(I love long words like this).Well,now I am kinda out of thoughts for this post,so I think I am gonna end it here and see u in the next one.
Adios Amigos
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